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Nov. 6th, 2011
Ash and Sammy elected to spend the whole morning dozing in the office. They started with me, when I was doing my early morning blogging rounds, but they stayed when Pop took over the room.
I feel a little bad that Coco seems estranged from that tight grey circle. But I know they all share affection.
I feel a little bad that Coco seems estranged from that tight grey circle. But I know they all share affection.
November 2, 1995, Thursday
Nov. 6th, 2011 11:23 amPop gives Monk an Ingram Mall gift certificate.
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November 6, 2011
I came close to skipping this entry, but I remember it. I think this was when the deal was that you had to visit a number of shops, like a rat through the maze, and when you did that, I think you got something like a five-dollar certificate, and I probably used it for a paperback.
A little demeaning actually. And I now wonder if this was set up by Mother's shrinks to see how little pride I had left, though I know that is unlikely.
I have not been to a mall in ages. I remember when I used to regularly do the circuit, visiting the gimmick-gift shops and the book stores. And that now seems utterly pointless somehow.
Well, if it were not for the Internet and Amazon, I guess I might still be making the rounds, needing to do some shopping for my books. But I remember that it was usually humiliating, having to catch the buses and shopping with only a few dollars in my wallet. And that's my adult life. God, how is it possible?
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November 6, 2011
I came close to skipping this entry, but I remember it. I think this was when the deal was that you had to visit a number of shops, like a rat through the maze, and when you did that, I think you got something like a five-dollar certificate, and I probably used it for a paperback.
A little demeaning actually. And I now wonder if this was set up by Mother's shrinks to see how little pride I had left, though I know that is unlikely.
I have not been to a mall in ages. I remember when I used to regularly do the circuit, visiting the gimmick-gift shops and the book stores. And that now seems utterly pointless somehow.
Well, if it were not for the Internet and Amazon, I guess I might still be making the rounds, needing to do some shopping for my books. But I remember that it was usually humiliating, having to catch the buses and shopping with only a few dollars in my wallet. And that's my adult life. God, how is it possible?
November 3, 1995, Friday
Nov. 6th, 2011 01:33 pm1. Battling that terrier
2. News: Diabetes and losing a foot
3. Reclaiming books on solitaire and chess. It does seem to be cyclic. The cold weather?
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November 3, 2011
You can see that a lot of these entries from this period are scarcely more than prompts to my memory. It is actually working well for me, I think, but they certainly couldn't be much to read on their own.
I remember this terrier phase. The dog was small enough to travel through the neighborhood's wooden, latticed fences. He was a very small dog. I was afraid Bo might tear him apart. I also hated that the terrier would shit a soupish dropping that our eskies were inclined to partake in as though it were a fine, exotic delicacy. Aside from the grossness of this act, I was also afraid of our dogs getting worms or suffering other afflictions. I cannot remember how long this phase lasted, or if it was a staple of Bay Horse life until we finally left.
As for the second item, I rather marvel that I have not suffered a serious symptom of diabetes. I would be more than mildly surprised if I do not have the condition.
I dropped solitaire a long time ago, but I know I have tried chess now and again through the years until fairly recently, well, at least until a couple of years ago. I would be given to thinking that it might be a nice brain exercise, but it always demoralized me to see my dumbness made so manifest. I am happy to say that book-blogging will probably be my hobby or distraction for life. I do not feel a need for anything else, aside from lovers and friends and money, of course.
2. News: Diabetes and losing a foot
3. Reclaiming books on solitaire and chess. It does seem to be cyclic. The cold weather?
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November 3, 2011
You can see that a lot of these entries from this period are scarcely more than prompts to my memory. It is actually working well for me, I think, but they certainly couldn't be much to read on their own.
I remember this terrier phase. The dog was small enough to travel through the neighborhood's wooden, latticed fences. He was a very small dog. I was afraid Bo might tear him apart. I also hated that the terrier would shit a soupish dropping that our eskies were inclined to partake in as though it were a fine, exotic delicacy. Aside from the grossness of this act, I was also afraid of our dogs getting worms or suffering other afflictions. I cannot remember how long this phase lasted, or if it was a staple of Bay Horse life until we finally left.
As for the second item, I rather marvel that I have not suffered a serious symptom of diabetes. I would be more than mildly surprised if I do not have the condition.
I dropped solitaire a long time ago, but I know I have tried chess now and again through the years until fairly recently, well, at least until a couple of years ago. I would be given to thinking that it might be a nice brain exercise, but it always demoralized me to see my dumbness made so manifest. I am happy to say that book-blogging will probably be my hobby or distraction for life. I do not feel a need for anything else, aside from lovers and friends and money, of course.
Maybe I made a mistake in letting Ash out. But I'm not sure. It's only drizzling, and it may just be this little pitty-patty stuff through the rest of the day and overnight. Still, if I could snap my fingers, I would have her inside with Coco and Sammy. I'm not looking to let the other cats out.
November 5, 1995 Sunday
Nov. 6th, 2011 03:34 pm1. Jill does seem to be having a sharpening effect of Jack. Mother says that Jack now intends to get his GED and study business. She quotes him as saying, "It looks easy."
2. Mother encourages Jill to drink alcohol, being more welcoming. Monk cannot deny feeling stressed.
3. Saw "Full Body Massage". Renewing idea about collecting non-pornographic movies.
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November 6, 2011
Gabe might laugh at the the third item, as she was wont to kid that Mimi Rogers's "Full Body Massage" is pornographic enough. She never did send that movie back to me. I don't know if she even bothered to watch it all the way through.
Of course, Jack never did get that GED, nor did he take to studying anything, but then I guess he did not need to, though I remember thinking that he really did have the intelligence to do something more middle-classy than cut lawns for his money. But a good looking wife and sharp kids are more than enough to call it a successful life, I believe.
2. Mother encourages Jill to drink alcohol, being more welcoming. Monk cannot deny feeling stressed.
3. Saw "Full Body Massage". Renewing idea about collecting non-pornographic movies.
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November 6, 2011
Gabe might laugh at the the third item, as she was wont to kid that Mimi Rogers's "Full Body Massage" is pornographic enough. She never did send that movie back to me. I don't know if she even bothered to watch it all the way through.
Of course, Jack never did get that GED, nor did he take to studying anything, but then I guess he did not need to, though I remember thinking that he really did have the intelligence to do something more middle-classy than cut lawns for his money. But a good looking wife and sharp kids are more than enough to call it a successful life, I believe.
how many pictures
Nov. 6th, 2011 04:36 pm"You know," Pi says, "it might be fun to keep track of how many pictures you post every day."
"Heh, yeah, it might come close to a hundred on some days."
Daimon says, "I guess you're no longer thinking about putting this whole business behind you."
"No, I guess not. I'm trying to be more careful though, but in the end, I know I am relying on good fortune, that and the obscurity of the masses."
"Heh, yeah, it might come close to a hundred on some days."
Daimon says, "I guess you're no longer thinking about putting this whole business behind you."
"No, I guess not. I'm trying to be more careful though, but in the end, I know I am relying on good fortune, that and the obscurity of the masses."
November 6, 1995, Monday
Nov. 6th, 2011 05:34 pm1. Mother asks Monks whether he is depressed. He feels good, but in a quiet, reflective way. Because of the cool weather?
2. Feeling brown at Leather & Lace.
3. High-stress day traveling all around and downtown on the bus. Hungry, too. Come home and just hear Mother talking about how great Jack is with Jill, getting money for her family.
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November 6, 2011
I suppose Mother wanted some assurance that I was properly feeling bad and was jealous on account of Jack's relationship with Jill. I doubt that I was looking more depressed or sullen, but was feeling as I reported. No, I don't think she was feeling sympathy. Sure, I obviously felt the sting of being grievously treated by Fortune this way, with respect to Jack and his romantic fortunes, but I was used to that and it was not an albatross around my neck.
Second, Leather & Lace was a big part of my porn life then, that shop all the way on the far northeast corner of Loop 410. I wonder if it is still there. It had a lot of white business, and one of the shop girls was a gorgeous blonde, and she had a way of making me feel small, and no doubt Jack would indeed get a very different reaction.
As for the third item, it does not help that Mother is trying to rub my social misfortune in. I can only hope that Jack was not getting money from Pop, but he probably was, and, yeah, Mother would count that as Jack's magnanimity. Life was hard enough on me without having to count on Mother to twist the knife back and forth, back and forth.
If the situation were reversed, she would have been pushing me and my girls out, so as to spare Jack his feelings, while also going out of her way to do nicer things for him out of sympathy. I do believe that.
2. Feeling brown at Leather & Lace.
3. High-stress day traveling all around and downtown on the bus. Hungry, too. Come home and just hear Mother talking about how great Jack is with Jill, getting money for her family.
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November 6, 2011
I suppose Mother wanted some assurance that I was properly feeling bad and was jealous on account of Jack's relationship with Jill. I doubt that I was looking more depressed or sullen, but was feeling as I reported. No, I don't think she was feeling sympathy. Sure, I obviously felt the sting of being grievously treated by Fortune this way, with respect to Jack and his romantic fortunes, but I was used to that and it was not an albatross around my neck.
Second, Leather & Lace was a big part of my porn life then, that shop all the way on the far northeast corner of Loop 410. I wonder if it is still there. It had a lot of white business, and one of the shop girls was a gorgeous blonde, and she had a way of making me feel small, and no doubt Jack would indeed get a very different reaction.
As for the third item, it does not help that Mother is trying to rub my social misfortune in. I can only hope that Jack was not getting money from Pop, but he probably was, and, yeah, Mother would count that as Jack's magnanimity. Life was hard enough on me without having to count on Mother to twist the knife back and forth, back and forth.
If the situation were reversed, she would have been pushing me and my girls out, so as to spare Jack his feelings, while also going out of her way to do nicer things for him out of sympathy. I do believe that.
Sunday Night
Nov. 6th, 2011 09:46 pmVery quiet this evening. Let's just list some things before calling it a day.
1. Having finished my day's news harvesting early, I thought I might be able to do an early shower and still be able to get to the toilet tonight, but that didn't happen. Toilet night and shower night just don't work together.
2. I'm keeping the cats inside. They aren't complaining much. I'm glad I let them have last night to work off some of that feline energy.
3. I did get around to clearing out my old computer's wires and speakers. A lot of it was still plugged in and heating, even without a computer. The desk is still a mess. I know, it's been a while already, but you know Monk.
4. The plastic board that surrounds my light switch broke off, half of it did anyway. It was funny. I was in Pop's office using the computer when I heard something break, and I was afraid the cats got into my room, but my door was still shut, so I didn't think anything of it. It was when I went to my room and put on the fan that I noticed what happened. I know it was cracked before, and after all this time, the pressure just became too much, and snap!
5. I discovered that the "Irreversible" scene is back up on XVideos, the whole thing, from the set-up to the closing beat-down. Found it on a Tumblr.
6. I finally caught up to 'yesterday' on my Google Reader. Remember, I was more than a month behind. The funny thing here: I still have over a thousand images to peruse. It would see my subscriptions must get me over 500 images a day. Pretty good. Now if I can just keep from getting in trouble.
*****
Okay, I think we're done. It's Eisenhower and then bed.
1. Having finished my day's news harvesting early, I thought I might be able to do an early shower and still be able to get to the toilet tonight, but that didn't happen. Toilet night and shower night just don't work together.
2. I'm keeping the cats inside. They aren't complaining much. I'm glad I let them have last night to work off some of that feline energy.
3. I did get around to clearing out my old computer's wires and speakers. A lot of it was still plugged in and heating, even without a computer. The desk is still a mess. I know, it's been a while already, but you know Monk.
4. The plastic board that surrounds my light switch broke off, half of it did anyway. It was funny. I was in Pop's office using the computer when I heard something break, and I was afraid the cats got into my room, but my door was still shut, so I didn't think anything of it. It was when I went to my room and put on the fan that I noticed what happened. I know it was cracked before, and after all this time, the pressure just became too much, and snap!
5. I discovered that the "Irreversible" scene is back up on XVideos, the whole thing, from the set-up to the closing beat-down. Found it on a Tumblr.
6. I finally caught up to 'yesterday' on my Google Reader. Remember, I was more than a month behind. The funny thing here: I still have over a thousand images to peruse. It would see my subscriptions must get me over 500 images a day. Pretty good. Now if I can just keep from getting in trouble.
*****
Okay, I think we're done. It's Eisenhower and then bed.