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Mar. 9th, 2012
After a while I suppose I’ll get used to the idea of marriage and children. If only it doesn’t swallow up my desires to express myself in a smug, sensuous haze. Sure, marriage is self expression, but if only my art, my writing, isn’t just a mere sublimation of my sexual desires which will run dry once I get married. If only I can find him... the man who will be intelligent, yet physically magnetic and personable. If I can offer that combination, why shouldn’t I expect it in a man?
-- Sylvia Plath Journals, 1950
The problem, as she will learn, is that if a man is “physically magnetic and personable”, he will probably be bedding chicks left and right. Marriage will not be an escape from the emotional storms and violent passions. Indeed, maybe it is this that will invigorate her art to the next level and secure her name in the literary world.
-- Sylvia Plath Journals, 1950
The problem, as she will learn, is that if a man is “physically magnetic and personable”, he will probably be bedding chicks left and right. Marriage will not be an escape from the emotional storms and violent passions. Indeed, maybe it is this that will invigorate her art to the next level and secure her name in the literary world.
February 11, 1991, Monday
Mar. 9th, 2012 05:55 pmI took a look at the employment ads. I lapsed into a very brief bout of severe depression. I felt worthless. I don’t qualify to get jobs that I don’t even want. My only course seemed to be either homelessness or suicide.
Presently, my choices aren’t that bare. It is not unreasonable to expect my parents to be able to support my lifestyle for at least a moderate length of time.
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March 9, 2012
Well, I would not call this a “lifestyle”, but twenty-one years later, here we are, though I have lost one parent along the way, as well as a brother for all practicable purposes. Yet, interestingly enough, I am better than I have ever been, and I could live this life for another thirty years, thanks to my reading life and the Internet. I suppose middle-age has cooled a lot of the passion that made youth more unbearable, and I am content to live my little life of the mind. Unfortunately, Pop is seventy years old, even if he remains remarkably healthy and vital to this day. I would not venture to guess how many more years of this we can count on.
Presently, my choices aren’t that bare. It is not unreasonable to expect my parents to be able to support my lifestyle for at least a moderate length of time.
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March 9, 2012
Well, I would not call this a “lifestyle”, but twenty-one years later, here we are, though I have lost one parent along the way, as well as a brother for all practicable purposes. Yet, interestingly enough, I am better than I have ever been, and I could live this life for another thirty years, thanks to my reading life and the Internet. I suppose middle-age has cooled a lot of the passion that made youth more unbearable, and I am content to live my little life of the mind. Unfortunately, Pop is seventy years old, even if he remains remarkably healthy and vital to this day. I would not venture to guess how many more years of this we can count on.