
Great, the Cowboys are in an overtime game. Well, I suppose this is kind of great for Pop. I'm sure it's very exciting. It's just that I would like to have more than an hour in the big room this afternoon.
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1630
Pop is passed drunk on the couch in the big room, but I awaken him to ask if Jill is coming back to put up some new window blinds, and he affirms that she is, so that there is no point in my taking over the big room. So, my Sunday is busted up. I guess this would have been a good day for a walk, but it is much too late for that now.
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1745
Although I could go out for a walk, I realized that there was no reason why I couldn't walk around in the back yard with the cats. I needed to escape the claustrophic feeling of being cornered in my small bedroom. I needed the open air and the sky. I needed to be away from the computer screen, and I even needed to be away from the books. My eyes desperately needed a rest, and I needed the time just to think - what's going on, what am I doing, what can I do?
Then Pop slid open the kitchen sliding-door and called me. It was payday for Jill for putting up the new blinds in the big room. They needed the password for her to order a goodie. And a funny goodie it was. It is some sort of knitting gadget to help with making sweaters. Quite the gal! She works full-time and she will knit clothing. And still a very attractive woman, even in her forties. I cannot help feeling that, if there were any justice in the world, I should have gotten a woman like that. She would appreciate my literary sensibilities, and in my appreciation for her love, I would work a regular job. But that's not justice so much as it is a whacked out fantasy. Looks go to looks, and Jack is still a very pretty boy and slender in his forties. And that is the world's justice.
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2130
Jack and Jill have come back, just drinking and cranking up the country music. This Sunday just won't stop biting. It feels a lot like a Thanksgiving, and I loathe the prospect of having to do this again on Thursday and pray it isn't so.
I suspect Jack was motiviated by the idea of getting a little payday of his own for his work edging the lawn. My first thought was that, learning from Jill that Pop is stumbling drunk, he was going to order something big on Amazon too, but I suspect the booze is enough. My thoughts still spike into the paranoiac zone when it comes to Jack, even though I actually believe that he has some genuine sweet feelings toward the old man, and is indeed more of a friendly companion to him that I can be in my chilly aloofness. They like the same booze and the same music.
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2305
It's after eleven and I am tired and ready for bed. My trial is made a bit easier with Ketchum's "Girl" to absorb my attention, but I'm afraid I'm going to have to confront Pop soon --
No, they are leaving! The universe doesn't have it in for me.