I finally had a significant dream, but it was a horrible dream. Interestingly, it came in the form of a hallway dialogue. I am talking with mother's shrink, Dr. B. He is relating what Jack has told him about a very dark incident in my past, and my dream jumped back to the supposed incident itself. I got a gun, and Jack and I caught the bus and went downtown. I was looking for someone to shoot and kill, just for the experience of it. Then a homeless white man started begging me for quarters, and my search was over. I shot him and we hurried to catch another bus.
As I was waking up and coming out of this dream, it felt so real, as if this murder really happened, as if it truly represented a dark event in my past that I tried to forget.
Where does this dream come from?