
Money-stress. I haven't really felt that in a long time, in years, I guess. Pop just has always seemed to be able to pull money from somewhere, seeming to have inexhaustible resources, at least for our modest but reasonably comfy lifestyle. This is not about anything I want. I would be quite happy for things simply to continue as they have been over these past ten years.
The problem is that Pop has become big-eyed over an ad he saw for a big-screen TV. 'Tis the season of Christmas specials! He would only have to pay 56 dollars per month to have the TV of his dreams ((I think it is "curved", though that strikes me as possibly being more of a bug than a feature)). The thing is, that is 56 dollars every single month for years and years, till the end of his life and beyond most likely. One has to feel the weight of that constant draw from your bank account. He does talk about the need to cut back, if he goes that route. Last night, he even told me that he found a way to do it: he'll cancel his subscription to Dish's premium channels - the HBOs and Showtimes and such, which includes all his cowboy shows. This is why I think he is beginning to lose his mind. He is willing to walk out on that thin limb for a big, fancy television set, only to then not have anything to watch.