sleep

I went to bed early at ten thirty, but after close to four hours of sleep, I cannot fall back asleep.

At least I have finally caught Coco for a midnight feeding. I have been having much better luck with the greys, but missing Coco.

My first intention was to read more of "Eisenhower", but it's a little chilly tonight, and I remembered that I would have to use the ceiling fan to put on the light.

I have to get comfortable with setting up my floor lamp again. If I had "The Exorcist", no doubt I would have gone to the trouble.

As it is, it makes a lot of sense to knock out my early morning blogging rounds. Though, I felt some aversion to subjecting my eyes to this backlit reading, since I spend so much of the day on the computer.

The thing is, my mind very much wants to sleep, feeling heavily tired, but my body won't have it. A lover would probably be the ideal answer, a little midnight sex.

morning blogging rounds

I effectively had my morning blogging rounds at three rather than seven, as I slept in a bit and then had to take care of trash day. So, I am not suffering for the broken sleep, getting it back in the morning, or at least much of it.

mosquito

A little mosquito has been keeping me company this morning, nibbling on me now and again. I have made close to a dozen good swats at it, but haven't been able to score the kill.

Even more bothersome, it seems so small that our window screens wouldn't be an obstacle for it.

To Be or Not To Be

“No one ever lacks a good reason for suicide.”

-- Cesare Pavese

A. Alvarez, in discussing attitudes on suicide in the modern era, at least up to the time of his publication, 1970, argues that while suicide was no longer regarded as a mortal sin or an abomination, it still tended to be explained away as an aberrant event, whether because of young love, a Romeo and Juliet kind of tragedy, or because of the seasonal blues, or even because of national culture.

I suppose that our own era has caught up to Alvarez, in that we now recognize it as a more universal condition. Although few of us commit suicide, it is a common thought, that we could put an end to this nightmare that is our existence. Such may be part of the condition of conscious, self-aware existence, that you have this sense of choice, to be or not to be, whatever dreams may or may not come.

milk

I forgot to ask Pop to get milk. Friday is grocery day, but the rest of this week would go by a little more easily if we could gets some today.

This note just reminded me that I need to make a start on the grocery list.

Quote of the Day

“To grow old is to grow common. Old age equalizes - we are aware that what is happening to us has happened to untold numbers from the beginning of time. When we are young we act as if we were the first young people in the world.”

-- Eric Hoffer

'Young' may be a little dumb in that way, but, man, what you would give to be young like that forever...

Amazon

Wow, it looks like Amazon put my order for "The Exorcist" on a faster footing, sending it by UPS to arrive on Friday.

But I'm not sure if that is for the best. I'd kind of like to finish my Eisenhower book, and I need the weekend, and then a day or two more in all likelihood. I don't know if I could just let that novel lay by the side like that.